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2004-08-02 || 4:18 p.m. I've been shutting myself up. I've been too cold for my own good. What was that? No emotions? That was me. I need to have emotions damnit. I need someone... ... nevermind someone. I need to cry. Oh, right... if I kill myself, I know that genuinely 2 people will feel fucking sad about it. Because they genuinely love me: my mum and my sis. Nevermind that, I won't kill myself, because hurting those two is the last thing I want to do. ... it's just sad. Two people. TWO people for God's sake. I only know two people who will genuinely grieve for my death. I'm sad. What am I supposed to do with my life? I don't think anyone will believe me even if I told them everything. I'm writing so that I don't go crazy. So that I think I'm sharing my problems with someone. At least, for my own sanity.
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