2004-09-05 || 7:35 p.m.
.layer//EXPLODE

My head feels like it's about to explode =/ i am so stressed. The worst news is that yesterday my mum felt bad in her ears, so we went to see the nose, ear, throat doctor. When we were there, she had this vertigo attack. Shit, man... i was so scared. we've had a lot on our minds the past few months. especially her. and i've told her not to think too much, but she's the type that's always thinking u noe... as in... it's hard for her not to think about stuff... hard for her to let go. so, we don't know what's wrong yet, but the doc said to have her scanned at the hospital. stupidly, today's sunday. so i'm gonna go with her tmr. and then, she'll b goin wif my sis back to uk on the 9th. which is damn soon. fuck. worst come to worst i told her not to go wif my sis. until she's fully recoverd from watever the hell it is. and i seriously hope my letters come tomorrow. if not then i'm in deeper shit than i am in rite now. i can't go if i don't have a visa, and a friend told me tt i'm supposed to repli the accomodation letter by the 10th. so guess what, more stress. and i've had to handle that fucking bastard. i'm just glad i don't realli have to have anything to do with him anm. fuck it. all in all, with everything going on and me having to have something to do with everything, i feel like exploding ='(

i think i just need to talk to someone...

cool... ari just msgd me asking me how i was, n i din recognise his number... lol, was kinda mean actualli, cos i was not in the mood to ask who he was... he's realli a great fren =) he's like the brother i never had =)